Its in doubt when the worst decisions of ones life is made and its in lack of knowledge that mistakes are multiplied. I find myself troubled and perplexed – for once in my life – I am unable to make a decision because of lack of knowledge. Why do I say this – I am troubled because once in my life I find myself unable to name my purpose in life. I am a woman of favour, for the Lord has blessed me in indeed and I can say that I have tasted and know that the Lord is good and I am persuaded that my God is more than able and the plans He has for me ears have not heard or eyes conceived – so why Im I troubled? why do I keep repeating the same question to myself – How comes you still do not know your purpose? – I finally realised not only is it important to know who you are in Christ Jesus but to also know the walk for which He has called you for. His words says, that I am chosen, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, and I belong to God so that I will declare His praise (1 Pet 2 vs 9) – But what does He say about my purpose ?
I had always prayed to be in His Will to walk the path He has set out for me – I had been basking in His favour, in His grace, in His abundance – In His Love – My life a living testimony of the goodness of the Lord – But still I had erected barriers to keep Him out.
Woe to me I exclaimed – I have not been listening to Him – His grace and love have been with me so that I can boldly declare His praise but my heart had been closed – on lock down – I had deafened Him out – I pray what I think He thinks I should be praying – I had been limiting God by fancying that I know what He can do – I had not opened my mind to expect unexpected things – to pray what He wants me to pray for – I had overcrowded my mind with my spiritualism instead of the simplicity that is in worshiping God – Infact I had missed Him FULL STOP – But because of HIS GRACE – because of His grace – I have been given another chance to hear again – Dear Lord I cry out – the walls are torn down – Speak to me Im listening – What is it you want me to do?
People come into your life for a reason – sometimes as a wake up call for things you have been doing wrong – Its time for a change – A good change I hope.
So then I ask – Name your purpose – God willing I will be able to soon.